Thoughts Of A Woman

Again, I can't believe it is already 2011! When I was graduating in 2002 from high school, I never would have believed that I would be married and have children. I was very adamant about never getting married and having children. That just shows you that you never know what you want until life hands you something different. I look at everything around me and think, "Wow! I am so glad this is how my life turned out."

It's snowing here in Texas. Imagine that. Snow. In Texas. Of course we had a lot of snow last year but still snow in Texas. Such weirdness.

Not much has been going on here. Started a new picture blog. That is lots of fun for me. I just hope that I will be able to get a picture up everyday. It is harder than what I thought it was going to be. K has her first competition coming up at the end of January. That should be fun! I always love seeing her happy and cheer is what makes her happy. Cleaned my blinds today. Whew! Never want to do that again! It is really cold outside. If I weren't lazy and cold, I would take my kids outside. B is getting big. I can't believe he is 11. Man! I'm getting old.

I have waited my two cycles and we should be trying again in the next few months. I'm nervous, sad, excited, and anxious to get this started. Of course, not a day goes by where I don't think about my first pregnancy. I hope the second time around ends with a better result. Sometimes when I think about it, it hits me like a knife in my heart. I feel as if I say that all the time. I feel like a failure but then I have to remind myself that I didn't do anything wrong. Something had to be wrong from the beginning but it doesn't make it feel any better. I just wish that I never had to go through it. But then again, I think it has made me have a new outlook in life.

Always tell your family and those that you love that you love them everyday! Sometimes you want to tell somebody something but they are not there anymore. Take care of yourself! Love like crazy!!!