Am I Bitter?

Yeah.  I think that I am.  I have kept a journal about my journey to get pregnant and it seems that every time I write in it, my feelings are angry.  There were only 3 entries in the book that were happy ones.  I would really like to have another entry that is happier.  I'm not sure when that is going to happen.  I have a doctor's appointment next Friday (7/8/11).  I would really like to know what is going on with my body and stuff.  So until then, I have to work at not being grouchy or bitter.

On another note, the kids are with their mom until the 5th or so.  I have enjoyed the house being quiet and not having to do much.  I do miss them but I enjoy my moments without them.  :)